i read your tumblr posts. it ate me up so much inside, when i read the list of songs you posted for me. i loved it. it was like everything i remembered about me, you, us, we; past, present, future, just everything came rushing through my head. all the times i’ve given you so much more, and then all the times i’ve doubted you, everything collaborated.
i always said i was going to leave with a smile on my face, im so sick of this town and everyone in it. sometimes i have those days where i dont even know why im still in this. why im still putting up with everything i thought would be different.
but truth is, baby, truth is. listening to your silly “hey there linda” remix by the plain white T’s, i could’ve cried. it just brought back so much, from day one to things we’ve talked about in the future. i don’t ever want to leave this all behind somewhere, stashed away in my closet.
i just hope you consider that, next year is going to be so godamn different. for real. and theres no doubt in my mind, i want this new change soo bad. but i don’t know what i’m putting us into, i really dont. it’ll really put us to the test. whether we decide to break up, or take some time off, date other people, or stick through it, whatever is going to be thrown at us, i hope we respect each others decisions for the better.
one may not think the other is doing the right thing, but if this was meant to be, no matter what happens something will always bring is back. back to where we left off. i act like no thing matters to me, so that it doesn’t hurt me so much when it’s gone. but truth is, it hurts just as bad.
you make up most of my high school memories, you held my confidence, my lack of sanity, everything. you’re my only hs relationship, my best friend, lover, baby, sweet heart, valentine, whatever the word. it’s you. and even if we do break up..for whatever the reason, just remember, “i’ll love you, forever.”