A Handful of Broken Glass

Honestly, I don’t need to be told to be “okay”…

People keep asking me “what’s wrong” or “are you okay” and they keep telling me, “cheer up” or “you know it’s not healthy to be sad all the time” and “forget about it and move on”.

But really though, I don’t think I need to be told to be “okay”…Does anyone chose to feel this way? No matter what the problem was to make someone feel this way, does anyone chose to feel sad? No. But it’s not like I’m going to wake up one morning and have everything be “okay”. I’m not 5 years old anymore, and I don’t work that way. I’m going through a process, so just drop it already, leave me alone, let me get over this and heal ON MY OWN TIME.

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Why don’t I tell people how I feel? Because it would be like giving them the only weapon that could hurt me from the inside out.

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I hate that I’ve put myself in a position to let myself depend on certain people so much to the point that sometimes it gets tough to get through a day, especially when there’s a point during the day where I find myself alone…and I realize how lonesome it really is.

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And the nights, they’re the worst. The time of day when everything always replays

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And then when I finally let my walls down you make me remember why I had them up in the first place.

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I always want to be there when you want me there. But I always feel alone when I’m just here, waiting for you to be here.

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Neko